Wednesday, May 26, 2010

the way it is

Some times you feel down. Some times you look at your life and wonder.. where did you hit that fork in the road that changed everything? Some time you think that you have been let down.
Christopher is away in AZ on a business trip tonight.. im here, alone, awake, and exhausted, wondering why? why?? why do i have to deal with this? why does MY child have CF? why not my neighbor? why not my friend? well.... a little bit of knowledge was bestowed upon me tonight...
"she is here for u, not u for her"
Ive been doing everything, earthly possible, to help my daughter. to keep her going strong and living healthy. Eveerything in my power to keep her here a day longer with me. Then i read that.. BAM. it hits me. it hits me that its true. shes here for me. She is here to change me, to mold my life into something amazing, to make me who i am meant to be.
She is my love, my life, my everything. I wouldnt be with out her. shes my world. my baby girl.


  1. Beautiful way to look at this! You are doing such a great job with her and your love for her is so apparent in all that you do and say. Hang in there momma and take it one day at a time.

  2. 向著星球長驅直進的人,反比踟躕在峽路上的人,更容易達到目的。.........................